So many mixed emotions. I seriously feel so blessed to be part of such an inspirational, supportive class. I freaking love all my seniors. Call me biased, but I swear the Class of 2012 is, always has, and will always be the best class at CAMS. And to think that after four years, we only have nine days left together.. 

…just like that.

I’m currently going through old photos from these past four years for a senior slide show, and I’m just bawling my eyes out. I can’t believe I’m already graduating next week.

He’s as damned as he seems, with more heaven than a heart can hold.

And so it goes to show— good things always come when you least expect it. 

Seriously the most random thing ever, but made my night. It’s always nice to tie up loose ends. (:

So I just recently found out that my mom has low key been scouting out debut venues for me, which honestly really surprises me, ‘cause whenever I would bring up my debut to her, it always seemed like she didn’t want to talk about it. And I understand it’s ‘cause of her financial situation, but it just seemed like she didn’t support me, or that my 18th birthday wasn’t a huge deal to her. But yeah, anyway, she actually came up to me for the first time tonight about a potential venue, and asked me when I was available to check it out with her. And she told me she’s also been talking to my auntie about it, and my auntie is actually willing to pay for my cake, which saves us at least $100. I know this isn’t that big of a deal, but you have no idea how happy I am that she’s doing this for me. All this time I thought I would have to do last-minute planning all by myself and my debut would turn out crappy (if it even happened at all), but now, I have my mom by my side, where she’s always been all along. Oh, and my sister too, ‘cause she’s been low key working on my slide show lol.

I’ve been dreaming about my own debut ever since I was a flower girl in my cousin’s debut back when I was six years old. I just can’t believe it’s finally happening. :D

So this morning, I checked my Facebook to find some of my middle school friends posting about the death of a fellow student. I felt sympathy, but the name didn’t sound very familiar, so I didn’t think too much about it; but then I check Facebook again to see my friend’s status about how the last time she saw him was in middle school. So I grab my 8th grade yearbook, and there he is, on page 13— Isaac Preciado. 

I don’t think I’ve ever talked to Isaac, but I do remember passing by him in the hall and seeing him around during lunch. And just the fact that he’s someone I went to school with and my age, and his life was taken away so abruptly.. it’s just another reminder that life is indeed too short. So don’t waste it on things that make you unhappy; there’s no time for that. Fill every second with moments and memories that will do your life justice; and if they do happen to be painful, take it as a learning experience and make it worth something.

My prayers go out to Isaac Preciado and his family. Even if your life was taken away much too quickly, you’re in a better place now ♥